My life after five years from now

I am an adolescent who have just completed heights school and has started attending college. My academic progress is satisfactory and I am getting good grades. By nature I may be considered a shallow person who manoeuvers things rather lightly. I dont go much deeper into any problem to really comprehend it. Although, I am gregarious and fun loving, basically I am an intr everywheret and I keep my personal life sheltered as I dont entertain people into confidence easily. I have a weak personality and lack self confidence. To camouflage this, I always try to be over friendly and talkative with my friends.But deep down, I dont trust my friends and never share my innermost thoughts with them. If things dont work come to the fore according to my expectations, I become a recluse, and refuse to discuss it with anyone. My outlook is conservative and can not accept any open show of essence easily. Fear of the unknown, fear of failure has totally blinded my vision and obstructed my ration al thinking capacity. Although I am well aware of my drawbacks, I am unable to diverseness for the better. Currently my vision about life is blurred by my short sightedness and lack of wisdom and experience.I would like to change these negative attributes and enhance my personality. The vision of my life five years from now is a complete transformation of my personality. Ill accept my friends as they are and complaisance them as an individual. Ill take some of my friends into confidence and share my problems and successes with them. Ill always listen to their point of view before pickings any sticky decision. Ill shed my pessimistic and gloomy attitude and encounter any problem with a positive mind.Ill acknowledge my fear, will analyse it and desex a conscious effort to eliminate it from my system, in a slow but determined way. This negative personality trait affected me greatly and prevented me from taking right kind of decisions at the right moment. Ill overcome fear with doub le determination and become a person with an independent personality, who can take right kind of decision at the right moment, and can dream, believe and act towards realising his cherished goal.Career-wise I have not thought of any item profession which I would like to pursue within the course of next five years. While Ill concentrate on my studies to ensure good grades, on spare convictions I would do odd jobs to earn some extra money.Since travelling excites me a lot, I would take up part time job in travel agencies such as tourist guide or interpreter which will take me to exotic tourist places. While go with the tourists, Ill visit beautiful islands, see exotic landscapes of steep mountains, and lush green vegetations. Sometimes Ill lie down in solitude on a sandy beach, and gaze at the blue azure sky. Associating with nature will give me a clear perspective on life and what it holds. Ill shed my superficial self and emerge a more genuine person who will appreciate anything from beauty of nature to the beauty of a girl from aesthetic sense. This will help me to get into a permanent relationship, which till now is eluding me.I want to confidently go in the management of my goal of transforming my personality within five years from now. Only time will tell how far Ill be successful in changing my negative personality traits and become a person who is honest with himself and with others and have emotional strength, integrity of character, clarity of mind and confidence in others. If I check off the personality mentioned above within five years from now, my goal of personal transition will become a reality.